the early bird eats a lot of worms

i was gonna make this joke

when i was in a psych ward at 17 there was this pretty girl forrest whose 'friends' tried to kill her with rat poison in a 5th of tequila. she later tried to kill herself and ended up there. we held hands during group therapy once. we wrote some little love poems to each other and we said we'd meet up after we got out. later, we got out and talked a little on e-mail but after a while i stopped responding. the idea was more romantic while we were inside. i wonder if she's alive