anyway also i really hate like the networking you have to do for real life like you just have to suck up to your supervisors at uni and stuff and like be nice to your fellow pupils bc like you just have to even though some of them are rude sometimes

and everyone has diff ideas about everything like...

and also you can pretty much find anything you want in scientific journals like you can find stuff opposing what youre looking for and you can find what youre looking for at the same time it's crazy i think the whole system should be revised and instead of like journal articles it should be like 8 minute videos on a special science video hosting website

karma isn't really real it's just you *hoping* that people will get what they dished out

but really it's just an inevitability because eventually something bad will happen to everyone and it's impossible for it not to happen

so the spider got her karma and all it took was patience and i was just a vessel

well the reason is because im sad at how the person i was talking to just before treated me i just feel the urge to lash out and i don't know why it's not fair to the spider even though shes a bad person who ate her husband

i wonder about the concept of karma

(btw this isnt a metaphor or anything it's just a story)

i reach out to touch the fresh area of string she is producing... it is sticky... im not sure if i like it...

i begin to reel in the rest of the silk and destroy what she's made... i don't know why im destroying her creation

in the back of my mind i know this isn't a good idea but i am so enthralled i just want to experience the silk

anyway i feel an urge to go closer to her web she is singing sweet songs to me and i want to feel the silk's warmth as it comes from her abdomen

then she spots me and she says she's a widow

her husband used to make a web just like she is doing now

that is.... until she ate him

she is making her web of silk and im wondering why

then i see a spider... she looks at me

(this is a throwback to my other story in the lobby chat the other day i liked it so much i want to record it in my thread forever)

*talks to myself* yea see this is what i mean i hope u have fun in whatever confined thing youre doing because anything you do can never really be yours

umm ok lol... *backs away slowly and then runs away*

yeah well you dont know how to respond to that bc youve never been faced with that question ur just a puppet... like you're just an empty sack that learns from its surroundings and youve learned that that's the appropriate thing to say and you can't diverge from your nature and say anything else because it's not in your nature and you have no free will.. even if you said something different it wouldn't be your own because you're still confined to the manmade construction of the expression of how you feel (language) and other stuff it's all just like so ... i don't know the word for it it's all just so... confined like you're just in a box and no one can go out of that box

anyway carrying on from ummm idk how to respond to that

BULLA F YOU CAN YOU NOT

anyway carrying on from ummm idk how to respond to that

thank you riskit youre too nice to me

wow nikki can you NOT DOWNVOTE MY THREAD NO ONE ASKED YOU TO COME HERE JUST LEAVE ME BE

ummm idk how to respond to that lol

do u really though?? like i feel like you're just saying that bc it's something people say

yeah.. i know that feel

u can do it though i believe in you

im just so bored tho like im so hungry and i need to do my assignments and stuff and sleep bc it's nearly 4 am and i have to be at uni at 9 am

it was good while it lasted

actually i dont want this thread anymore

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