I guess I should clarify. @yogahotwife and me are still very much in love, plan on continuing to improve our bond and believe we will grow old together. I certainly do not want people to believe because of our cuckolding our marriage was hurt, cuckolding has been one of the most beneficial influences in making our marriage stronger. This is simply one of those situations where too many outside elements are clouding our ability to even focus. Having so many truly drastic catastrophes and losses in our close circle, this summer would have broken most marriages, so the biggest causality has been our sex life not being tended to, and we believe living next door will actually remedy some problems.
Don;t get me wrong, I was not sharing the picture of divorce and her remarrying as a sad announcement but more of a dream and hope we will achieve. I want her to be in a serious relationship and actually make love to him. I am prepared for the possibility of him breeding her. Actually I am not only prepared, I now even prefer that outcome. The problem is she and I actually need cuckolding, nothing else arouses her more and nothing fulfills me more sexually. So why are we planning on separate yet connected homes? Because she never thought or desired to have kids so she does not have the ability to have any interest in sex when somewhere along the way the children beat any libido in her out.
Having to live with children can really destroy a woman’s libido and so we are tackling the only area we seem to have issues with, which is her desire for me to be a house husband next door, close enough that she is not removed from her kids but also afforded the distance that allows her an environment that promotes a spark for her sex life. We believe not that cuckolding was destructive, quite the opposite, we believe she needs black multiple times aa week to really transform her happiness. The longer she goes without being by an alpha superior bull, the more angry and anxious she gets. I would say we jokingly say that BBC is a medically necessary ingredient in her life. Well after 6 months of sexual absence, we kind of now believe that may not be such a joke.
We also are not looking to simply put on shows for each other so we each want some sexual privacy to explore and enjoy serving Bulls. So it is a very good thing I was mentioning, not a sad thing. I have been locked and denied for so long now that it really is no change, she relegated me to a different bedroom long ago, not out of some form of despise some people believe is a part of cuckolding (which it is not in our interest) but because she is such a light sleeper she actually needs her own bed.
Although I have tried to point out to her how different her tolerances are when it is one of her BBC bulls creating the distraction. Yes those parts of cuckolding are true, Hotwife’s will do anything a bull requests, Jen actually will drop right there and begin blowing a bull so I am sure her tolerance level will change if one were to join our marriage. No longer would she dislike middle of the night sex when I know whenever she spends the night at a bulls house, she comes home telling me how she hopes to be woken up and when she is she dutifully and with enthusiasm fulfills whatever sexual directive they can imagine.
If she is finally able to be given the pleasure and regular handling a master and dominant owner would be able to provide and I would be even more excited, enthusiastic and optimistic when she does finally start having a more long term, possibly evolving to him moving in with her and symbolically marrying her in a ceremony. So hopefully I did not give anyone the feeling that our cuckolding was in any way a negative player in this.
