You don't know me, but I'm here to disagree with Retti and say that sometimes video games are more than a hobby. After all, don't people make them?? Don't they get paid?? What's it called when you get paid to do something??
You don't like yourself. But you do admire yourself. It's all you've got so you cling to it. You're so afraid if you change you'll lose what makes you special.