Lyrics by Validor X3

Why must I chose between my heart and my God?

I could never feel anything for anyone or so I had thought

But he made me feel like I might actually be wrong

I love him now with anything and everything that I have got

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But first came my love of god in all that he’s done

He healed my heart and allowed me love

Yet why let me feel this way if I can’t practice these feelings

God or my boy both of them my heart will adore

I look at either I am always wanting some more

This is not a question that I can find easy to deal with

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I close my eyes and I feel god’s presence surrounding my soul

But when I am lonely I just want for Leo to be holding me close

I want to snuggle with him through all of my nights

But do not want to lose god’s presence inside of my life

In the moments I am suffering beyond what could be known

God is the only one that can give my soul a place to call home

But Leo though faulted will make me feel alright

All I have ever wanted was for him to come the light

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If it’s my fault can you blame me?

For being sick of living the same the thing?

If it’s my fault can you hate me?

For feeling love for both those who saved me?

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Why my must I choose one or the other?

It’s not fair in order to show my love to one it has to be smothered

I just want to follow god and love on my lover

Why should his gender change whether I can be his I will wonder?

Should I not love the only human I trust?

My love him for him is not about any lust

I am used to putting feelings under a cover

But how can I make true love for either one of them die and not suffer?

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How can I choose between my soul and my mind?

How could I trust anything or anyone they always will lie?

But he told me the truth and treated me right

And now he holds anything and everything there is inside

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But most important is the condition of my soul

God re-built me and allowed me to grow

Yet why let me grow so much if I can’t love with my heart?

How can I keep one but make the other one go?

Why does god not want Leo to hold me so close?

This is not a struggle that I can have and get out of the dark

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I dream at night and I see Leo kissing me and stroking my back

But the peace I get from god bring some light to the black

I want to keep reading my bible and keep to that plan

But I end up talking to him all the free time that I have

Whenever I am crying my eyes out because of my past

They both are there trying to patch up the cracks

Leo though not perfect can cradle me in his arms

God though perfect is forcing me to choose a side of my heart

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If it’s my fault can you blame me?

For being sick of living the same the thing?

If it’s my fault can you hate me?

For feeling love for both those who saved me?

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Why my must I choose one or the other?

It’s not fair in order to show my love to one it has to be smothered

I just want to follow god and love on my lover

Why should his gender change whether I can be his I will wonder?

Should I not love the only human I trust?

My love him for him is not about any lust

I am used to putting feelings under a cover

But how can I make true love for either one of them die and not suffer?

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I guess I can try to make a choice, but I want to know why

Did god give me a heart just so I could break it losing my guy?

Why can’t I be with them both, while I am alive?

Give my body to a man and follow god at the same time

I don’t care about sexual relations, they aren’t important to me

But even if I did why is it against what I believe?

I want to understand the reason why me and him are never to be

If it truly is love and I will stay on my knees?

Why do I have to be with a girl, who I do not really love as much as he?

And give up the one of two I actually need?

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Why my must I choose one or the other?

It’s not fair in order to show my love to one it has to be smothered

just want to follow god and love on my lover

Why should his gender change whether I can be his I will wonder?

Should I not love the only human I trust?

My love him for him is not about any lust

I am used to putting feelings under a cover

But how can I make true love for either one of them die and not suffer? Why?